Lifehouse - Blind

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like is was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this time
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
And I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me dies when I let you go

oh, let the break be longer!

im goin back tomorow. part of me misses hostel, part of me doesnt. i am totally NOT looking forward to the studying ill have to go through when i get there.
i was stood up today by shanti! oh shanti! mengapa?? thank god nile was there with me. we had some McD and bought some stuff and as usual, time flies quite fast when im hangin wit her. we can just talk all day man. i booked tix for syriana, but didnt feel like going.somethin about CS turns me off, i dunno what. but i dont mind goin to midvalley or 1utama. weird huh?
finished desperate housewives 2day. love dat show! i totally wont have time to catch season2 at uia..darn.
havent studied much during this break, and i regret it. but no use regretting rite? its my own fault. god, give me the concentration i need!..

memoirs of a sarah

quick updates:-

• MCIIUM's my new place now. its where i study, hang and live most of the time. its been okay. people are okay, at least most of them. engineerings kinda challenging, but ive only endured a month lebih of it so i dunno the real challenges. roommates are nice. lecturers are darlings. tons of hot guys (HAHA!).
  
• arabics been quite boring only cos of the lecturer. but i like arabic, its really interesting. i passed my recent exam..(which im not exactly PROUD of but am happy with at the same time).
  
• met up with iz a couple weeks ago. shes doin okay.
  
• UIA isnt really a sociable place for guys and gals so i really dont have anything juicy..hehe..but yeah, theres this guy i notice. although im smart enough not to mention him here. ;).

im at home now. break for a week lebih. will be goin back next week. niles bday yesterday. we went out to jusco. got some food at secret recipe and a cheesecake (we shared one cos we were so damn full). and we bought eachother..guess..SELIPAR! yeap. we bought identical slippers/flipflops. and so, we became..'the sisterhood of the slippers'..hehe. we both liked them and the price was reasonable..so ended up buyin the same pair. and we made a pact never to wear em to the bathroom, cos that would be disrespect to the sisterhood. totally. anyway nile, happy bday! love ya to death! hehe..sempat lagi buat dedication..
anyway, gotta sleep. chow.

wake me up when october ends

its been about 2 weeks of fasting month. another 2 weeks to go! i really hope to lose some pounds. although i really doubt i will cos ive been lacking in excercise. i used the treadmill a week ago for 3 days in a row. then, jadi malas. plus, dont have enough energy during the day to do it. pastu, at night, after terawih, lepak apa semua, i get sleepy. hmm..think of something sarah.
im gonna be goin to UIA matriculation centre in a couple of weeks. nervous like hell. itll be like the 1st day of school again. i need some baju kurungs, cos according to the buku they give, kena pakai baju kurung for classes, which is satu masalah negara, cos i only have 3 pasang! bagus punye sarah. now i need to go tempah some. sheeesh, menyusahkan jek. and we're suppose to wear white tudung, which i dont have either. but thats no prob, im sure i can find some in these couple weeks. i cant wait to start learning again. havent had that feeling of having something serious to do in a while. so, im ready to take up the challenge. i hope i do okayla.
ive packed up some of my stuff. and it accumulated to this really huge bag. i wonder if everyone else brings that much shit, or am i the only one? tak taula. i need some toiletries, stationary, baju kurungs and tudung. we'll be going to bkt merah hopefully tomorow after we come back from court..yup..court..but thats confidential information. sorry. :P. write more some other time. gotta wake up early tomorow.

wall of josh

josh holloway. one of the reasons i LOVE 'lost' so much! hes got the cutest dimples ever. haha. anyway, for any girls who wanna check him out. do it here.

if i were a millionaire

just a thought. if i were a millionaire, i would :-

• get an extreme makeover - from the face and down.
• hire a personal trainer, hopefully the one oprah hired. lol.
• buy tons of clothes and shoes and bags. *laughs evilly*
• build public libraries in every state in malaysia, which will have all the latest new books, encyclopedias, journals and all that shit.
• make sure all schools in malaysia are equipped wit comps and have access to internet.
• make SIDEWALKS everywhere. so people can WALK safely in the neighbourhood. :P.
• help needy students to achieve what they dream.
• help the poor..the old..build shelters..blabla..u know what i meanla.
• adopt a cub. is adopt the right word?
• adopt a panda.
• go to LA and meet johnny depp! and oh yeah, my current sweetheart, josh holloway. lol.
• get a nice, small house wit a li'l garden.
• get a small car. maybe a honda civic.
• get a nice handphone thats not too expensive.
• study abroad.
• go to every theme park thats worth going to.
• get an ipod?
• buy a summerhouse in the US for the family.
• direct and produce a movie. [hey, u can do that if ur damn rich rite?]
• build a hospital under my name..[wacky].
• construct more parks everywhere.
• build a theme park called 'the lost park' maybe somewhere in johor, which has ALL the awesome rides and is as big as..singapore. which is not that big for a country but big enough for a theme park. dontcha think?
• get an apartment in LA and NY. hehe
• open my own restaurant called 'délicieu cuisant'. which i think means, delicious cuisine in french. main hentam je. haha

and...ofcourse, if the money keeps coming in, donations will be made to the poor every month. okay, thats it for now.